Yay, Getting excited about dropping the weight. I realized today though, since hubby left....I think I've lost 10 pounds.......meaning when he gets back home monday, I  might get quite the lecture....

Especially since I intend to be 150 or less by Monday........I'm pretty sure I was 163-162 when he left.I'm down 4.4lbs since last Sunday when my friends saw me. If they're at church this Sunday too.....I might also be in trouble by them.

I'm kind of confused on how or why my size 6 dresses are all too big on me already.......when last time they still fit when I was 147. I'm 5 lbs more now than I was, so how is this possible? Maybe I'm losing it in different places this time??? IDK.

Today C and I are going to a wedding. we're both excited. I've not seen this couple in a few years, but I set them up together 9 years ago! Now, they're finally getting married! I'm so excited for them both! can't wait to go.

I'm doing C's hair for her. She's pretty excited about that too. lol Both of us have curly hair, and today we're going to be sure to let it go crazy curly. Normally we just blow dry it straight, or do little with it, so she's really excited about my doing her for her.

Guess that's it for now. Maybe we'll post pics later of her & I all dressed up for the wedding................Maybe just HER instead.

Somehow I dropped 1.4lbs since yesterday morning.......and a total of 4 pounds since Sunday. Not bad. I'm happy.

I have a wedding to go to tomorrow. I was hoping to be 150 by then, but I can handle being 152ish. I was quite surprised to be down 1.4lbs this morning...so, I'm happy.

My best friend flipped out on me yesterday when she saw me. She had not seen me since I was in the 160's-170's. She commented I needed to stop losing weight, especially in the waist area. I chuckled & told her she would have been one among the masses 3 years ago then, threatening to hospitalize me when I was 12 pounds smaller. Now I'm only 11 pounds from my LW 3 years go. I am back into almost every pair of jeans I could wear back then. A few more pounds, and I'll be in them all. YAY! Thank goodness for sweaters, so I can HIDE weight loss from others when I want to.

Hubby has been gone about 2 weeks.....maybe 3. He's not seen me since my weight was 160-162ish. I might get in trouble when he gets home. Oh well. If he wants to push me away, so be it.

Weight finally dropped below the 30lbs lost marker. It seems like the last 2 pounds took forever to lose. UGH! At least I'm finally a little over 30 down now! YAY!

My menstrual cycle is officially over. I knew when I had to pee like a race horse this morning, it was game over! Between that & the other......ahem......My weight is down 2 pounds from yesterday morning. I'm now at 155, from my 184.6 weight in July. Now I'm reaching for my 150 lb goal.

Hubby is still on the road, so hopefully I can drop the last 5lbs before he gets back. That would be AWESOME. My ultimate goal is to reach 147 again.......it was my LW from 3 years ago. Since cold weather is moving in, I can hide more in my sweatshirts & sweaters...but I can't seem to hide in my jeans. I went from size 13-14's down to size 7/8's since July. My 10 yr old (almost 11) daughter is 5'2-5'3" at 120lbs, and wears SUPREME CURVE Levi's jeans in a size 6, or size 28 waist. I'd love to be a size 6.....but to do that, I'd have to be at LEAST 147......come to think of it, I might have gotten down to 142lbs. I'll have to look it up on my blog, or in old writings I had kept from then. I know I was almost a size 6 about 3 years ago at my lowest weight. I even gave my old tops from then, to my daughter, as she can now wear them. (Yep. Sure enough, my LW WAS in fact 142. That's when everyone threatened to have me hospitalized.)

I still smile today, because I've acquired the nickname "twig" from my friend's husband. LOL Sick, I know, but it feels nice knowing I appear thin to others again. I've not had this feeling in so long. The kids tell me they don't like going places with me now, because guys keep "oogle-eying" me. I laughed & told them I don't notice, because dad's eyes are the only ones I want on me. They giggle & tell me its still gross. LOL

I still need to have my skirts and dresses taken in. They're size 8 and 10. All the new dresses & skirts I have are a size 6. I can also wear all my old clothing again. YAY! I only have 2 pairs of  jeans I still can't get on, but that's because I was at my thinnest when I bought them.

I decided I won't tell hubby my weight now......unless he asks. I told him back when my MIL was with us. I was 163.5 then. He left & came back, I had only lost a few pounds. Since he left 2 weeks ago...I've lost at least another 5lbs. Hope to drop the last 5 before he returns. Time will tell.

While at church this morning, I met up with a friend and her husband whom is in the Army. She laughed later today saying that he now has given me a new name...rather than call me 'Jolene', he refers to me as "twig". She went on to tell me that I had very little meat on my bones, which is why I can't warm up.

I had to laugh, as I still don't see me as a twig. I still have at least 6-8 lbs left to lose before I'm at my LW of 147lbs.

Hubby isn't home yet, and I hope to drop the weight before he comes back. If I wear layers of clothing, maybe he wont notice.......at least not until he FEELS the difference when we're in bed. 'ahem'

Oh well. Can't please everyone. My 7's & 8's are kind of loose. I've not weighed in though. Don't want to yet. If its higher or the same, I'm going to be so annoyed. Best to just wait until after my cycle is over... when I know the water weight is also gone....before I weigh in again...... Should be within the next couple of days or so.

Not much else to report right now. Just had to smile at being called 'twig'. Haven't heard that in three years!

I am only 1 pound away from a full 30lbs lost, and here I sit......holding at this stupid weight. Its almost torturous. However, the fact I am also on my menstrual cycle contributes. I am retaining water as well. Once this is over.......all will drop off....I'm pretty sure of it.

Meanwhile, I've heard nothing more from my grandmother regarding my grandpa's health. If  he makes it through the weekend, I will need to make another trip over there on Monday. The doctors said last week they didn't think he'd live past the next 2-3 days........its been nearly a week and he's still holding on. Family from Cali. flew in to stay with my grandma, we've all been able to say our words of love to him, hold his hand, even give & receive kisses from him. Its been a stressful journey, but one in which we all knew was coming.

I have a friend trying to talk me into doing daycare. Given I have 3 kids of my own, I could take on another 3 and get paid by the state. Not so sure I want to do it though. She says we can make our own hours, whatever we charge, the state pays a certain amount, and parents pay the rest. She makes an extra $100-$200 every 2 weeks doing it. To me, its not much. Not enough to pay the heat bills.

I've also toyed with the idea of finishing the art work for my children's book. Its one I wrote about Ethan a few years ago. To this day, the kids laugh hysterically at the story, and can't wait to share it with their friends. I have an aunt who recently had her book published, so she could get me on the right track as far as publishing goes. Time will tell. Its not a bad story considering I wrote it in 20-30 minutes....and to this day it makes kids laugh. lol

I have others tell me I need to write a book about parenting & discipline, because I have many creative punishment ideas that don't end in belittling a child through spanking, but rather drives the point home by teaching them to think for themselves. It builds their character & boosts their self-esteem rather than tear it down. Though I don't have enough for a book, I have been keeping notes on things I've found that work. However, my soon to be 8 yr old sometimes throws me for a loop & I find myself trying to re-group. He corners me with his over-intelligence & finds any loop-hole he can in my correcting him. LOL He's a funny one for sure.

So, I suppose thats it for now. I'm still plucking away trying to find ways to help my husband make ends meet, but not yet succeeding thus far. It makes me feel like quite the failure...perhaps thats why I've found myself falling back into the world of EDs...... I know I can control THIS to an extent.

Almost there!!!! My gw 1 is 150 lbs, my lowest wt was 147.

Sunshine here and high of 81!!!!! So excited!!! I plan to absorb it all up!

I guess I should just say, "Thank God for stress...& not feeling like eating....."

Weight continues to drop a little each day.

I finally made it to the chiropractor, so I could eat a real meal today. Not so much that I wanted to, but given I deal with hypoglycemia, its a must to keep my blood sugar up so I don't pass out on the kids.

Back felt so much better, I walked the dogs 2 miles. I've not stopped MOVING since.

I'll be back down to 150 hopefully in a week or 2. Only 8.6 pounds to my first goal. Once I hit 150lbs, if no one is eyeballing me closely, I can slowly lose a little more...winter is coming...which means sweater weather is on its way......I can hide in them. heh heh heh.

Finally back in to size 8 jeans. Can't wait to get back into my 7's and 6's.

I look in the mirror and still see things I don't like. I suppose it wouldn't be as bad, if I could work out more. Until my back is worked on, I'm stuck.

My mother in law will be leaving tomorrow morning. I'm very sad about this. I know I'm going to cry. I love her so much, I wish we could keep her forever.

My weight this morning the first time I stepped on the scale, was 158.8lbs. However, I didn't believe it. I stepped on again and it was 159.2lbs. I stepped on a third time it didn't change. I knew then the real answer. I'm still okay with it. Its a total lost of 25.4, that's all I care about.

My back being out is a big part of that. I can't eat more than a few bites at a time...but not really hungry either. Got the GNC stuff again, so that's also kick starting everything.

Once my MIL is gone, I'm going to start walking again. If I can't do anything else, I will at least walk. The dogs will LOVE it.

Guess that's it from the peanut gallery for now.