I realize for your height that this much of a drop will show....but if you are anything like me...it has to get on your nerves at least a little....

Here I am, nearly at my max high weight again and I lost ten pounds and people start making comments....

This morning B and I went to visit one of the elderly ladies and she gave me a pretty dress, said it should fit me (in reality, at my current weight it's about two sizes too small) I said I would have to lose some more weight before I could wear it and she was ARGUING with me...(?!?!?) I started to go in her bathroom and put it on just to prove to her that it would be too tight currently...cause I know she is going to drive me nuts until I wear it to church at least once...

It's a wonderful thing that they all give me clothes...but then again...I have to actually wear some of it....great when they have good taste that matches mine...not so great otherwise...LOL....I wear the items I don't like once for them to see me....keep it in my closet for a while and if they say anything about it, I wear it again...then I get rid of it after about a year...but at least right now...I have the excuse that it's too tight...I have to lose weight so I can then say it got too big...but then I will have to put up with the stuff you are going through....

Its nice to know I am loved and that people pay attention...at same time...it would be nice to have a  little more anonymity on the topic.

I love the pic...you and C look wonderful...she is so pretty, just like her beautiful momma...My Fey was always so leggy and thin, we all figured she was going to be just like me...she shot up fast but when she hit 5'5 she quit growing....She is beautiful just like she is but simply never grew any taller. Her sweet hubby is 5'7 and they look perfect together. They are in Fayetteville now and he leaves Monday to start SFPC (he wants to be a Ranger) and will be gone two weeks. I miss her.

My Sunny is a being nut job and then some...he's about 3 hours away, at ft hood...i heard from him more when he was Korea than I have since he got back nearly a year ago. He has a wife too but they split up in Feb and he doesn't even know where she is at this point....I miss her and hes run around with all these tramps since then and I just want to beat him. His biological donor called me last night upset because Sunny isn't even talking to him at this point because he told "the kid he needed to grow up and take some responsibility for his actions"....yeah, mr johnny come lately....you tell him...as if you have ANY right....Sunny is doing the same crap that this piece of crap did to me, behaving just the same way....except I KNOW my Sunny KNOWS BETTER and is doing it all anyway...cause I TAUGHT HIM BETTER and so did Bunny...Ironically it was AFTER establishing contact with this jerk that Sunny even began to really engage in this....he's always been a challenge to raise but he stayed pretty much on the straight and narrow.

BUT I didn't write to unload about all of that...it just came out...LOL

What I was going to say is (and this is not the fake mirror talking, and I know you know what I mean)...while I realize the camera tends to make us look heavier...you look good in your pic with C...you look healthy...you do not look heavy, or fat but at same time, you do not look overly thin. I am saying that because I don't think you should beat yourself up too much about your mom or bff...I think they are going to be like my Bunny and worry immediately just 'cause they've been there before when you when you were ill and having trouble dealing with the weight much less the other contributing issues....but you know what...though its been online and but its been about six years now...you and I have been through this stuff together too...and I feel I can say I know you well enough to say that you KNOW your limits and you are basically quite sane in your behaviour, you have common sense and know good nutrition, etc...you are a big girl and you do take care of yourself...you are a mom and a wife and very good at both and you know where you have to be to do your jobs in those arenas...but you also know where you need to be to keep yourself sane and feeling decent about yourself.

Believe me...and you know me well enough to know this, if I think you are going overboard, I am going to say so...and i know you well tell me the same...we've already gone though this some on different topics in the past....that's friends, even via X.

Love you J!