October 14, 2011

  • 29.0 down and HOLDING....UGH!

    I am only 1 pound away from a full 30lbs lost, and here I sit......holding at this stupid weight. Its almost torturous. However, the fact I am also on my menstrual cycle contributes. I am retaining water as well. Once this is over.......all will drop off....I'm pretty sure of it.

    Meanwhile, I've heard nothing more from my grandmother regarding my grandpa's health. If  he makes it through the weekend, I will need to make another trip over there on Monday. The doctors said last week they didn't think he'd live past the next 2-3 days........its been nearly a week and he's still holding on. Family from Cali. flew in to stay with my grandma, we've all been able to say our words of love to him, hold his hand, even give & receive kisses from him. Its been a stressful journey, but one in which we all knew was coming.

    I have a friend trying to talk me into doing daycare. Given I have 3 kids of my own, I could take on another 3 and get paid by the state. Not so sure I want to do it though. She says we can make our own hours, whatever we charge, the state pays a certain amount, and parents pay the rest. She makes an extra $100-$200 every 2 weeks doing it. To me, its not much. Not enough to pay the heat bills.

    I've also toyed with the idea of finishing the art work for my children's book. Its one I wrote about Ethan a few years ago. To this day, the kids laugh hysterically at the story, and can't wait to share it with their friends. I have an aunt who recently had her book published, so she could get me on the right track as far as publishing goes. Time will tell. Its not a bad story considering I wrote it in 20-30 minutes....and to this day it makes kids laugh. lol

    I have others tell me I need to write a book about parenting & discipline, because I have many creative punishment ideas that don't end in belittling a child through spanking, but rather drives the point home by teaching them to think for themselves. It builds their character & boosts their self-esteem rather than tear it down. Though I don't have enough for a book, I have been keeping notes on things I've found that work. However, my soon to be 8 yr old sometimes throws me for a loop & I find myself trying to re-group. He corners me with his over-intelligence & finds any loop-hole he can in my correcting him. LOL He's a funny one for sure.

    So, I suppose thats it for now. I'm still plucking away trying to find ways to help my husband make ends meet, but not yet succeeding thus far. It makes me feel like quite the failure...perhaps thats why I've found myself falling back into the world of EDs...... I know I can control THIS to an extent.